Into the realms of my mind

Disappointments.

I’ve got a fear of disappointment; what if I’m unable

to attain my goals? I’ve asked my dad and he said that

if I tried my best, that’s all that matters. He’s such

a good dad. It hurts me even more when I do badly.

SO NO.

I can’t be that way. I can’t make him sad. He says

it that way but I know he wants more from me. I

don’t want to disappoint him but I can’t help feeling

more and more disappointed as the days past by. I’m

in the midst of a sorrowful river and I’m currently

stuck in there. It sucks to be a disappointment to

myself - it sucks even more when all I ever wanted

was to make him proud of me. I feel so bad. I

hope it changes for the better. I know it’s not the

end yet but I freaking don’t wanna disappoint him.

He worked so hard - can’t I do any better?

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