I’ve got a fear of disappointment; what if I’m unable
to attain my goals? I’ve asked my dad and he said that
if I tried my best, that’s all that matters. He’s such
a good dad. It hurts me even more when I do badly.
I can’t be that way. I can’t make him sad. He says
it that way but I know he wants more from me. I
don’t want to disappoint him but I can’t help feeling
more and more disappointed as the days past by. I’m
in the midst of a sorrowful river and I’m currently
stuck in there. It sucks to be a disappointment to
myself - it sucks even more when all I ever wanted
was to make him proud of me. I feel so bad. I
hope it changes for the better. I know it’s not the
end yet but I freaking don’t wanna disappoint him.
He worked so hard - can’t I do any better?
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Novels are what I seek to publish; being educated through textbooks was what I have been brainwashed to do; poems reflect what my soul desires.
Quotes are created when reality rings a bell in my head; I speak what I speak.